Everything But...

Somebody That I Used to Know..

2012-02-02T22:06:00.001-05:00

... you can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness.

Nike Air Jordan XI Concords

2012-01-16T16:25:00.004-05:00

Have you heard about these shoes? How could you have not with the shopping frenzy all over the news just before Christmas... kids hid in the mall trash cans for these shoes!.. I got the request to turn them into a cake over the weekend! One of my best cake challenges yet! Total time taken to make this creation: 7hrs.

2012 = NEW THINGS + NO REGRETS!

2012-01-02T18:41:00.003-05:00

Well I can check snowboarding off the list! for NYE I spent it with friends at Mt St. Louis learning to snowboard! sooo much fun! however the past two days sooo much pain! I can't count how many times I fell on my ass but it was well worth it and can't wait to do it again in a few more weeks!

NYE was spent back at a friends house in the woods somewhere up north playing cranium, drinking champagne and wine.. and of course sparklers/fireworks at midnight! I honestly felt like I was on a long vacation, even tho it was just one night! Such a fun night to ring in the new year! I wish I had taken more pictures.

So to keep up with one of my other New Years Resolutions "Losing the 30lbs from 2011" I am joining Courtney in a spin class this coming Saturday.. then Yoga right after! call me crazy dead legs! cause that is exactly what I will be after. I have never done a spin class and can't wait to hit the bike!

So excited to live it up in 2012!
NEW THINGS + NO REGRETS!

New Years TO DO LIST! (for reals)

2011-12-28T15:43:00.009-05:00

Hope everyone had a Very Merry Christmas! now on to New Years!

I bought my first pair of boy skates this week.. well hockey skates! but I will always call them boy skates! since I grew up on figure skates falling forward on my face from the pick in the front! I have been pretty obsessed with them all week and went skating twice on them! they will take a bit of time to get use too! and they gave me a super nice blister ;)

I am taking this winter to get out of the house more an embrace winter sports and outdoor fun unlike past years! My extent of enjoying outdoor winter was taking a walk in falling snow or just watching the snow fall from the warm indoors! This winter I hope to get good at skating, which includes learning to stop! Attempt at snowboarding with out breaking my face! I bought Von Zipper goggles too at a cheap sample sale to get my board bunny attire started, oh an tubing.. must go tubing! :D

2012 resolutions!
Skate better
Learn to Snowboard
Go tubing
Walk/Run another marathon
Art Show
Lose 30lbs I gained in 2011

Happy New Year's Everyone! See you in 2012! :D

My First Craft Show!

2011-12-06T17:45:00.005-05:00

Amanda my helper!

The show was great! I wasn't sure what to expect being my first show! however I met some really nice people and people really liked my cupcakes! people even thought my xmas tree ornaments were cookies! maybe next show I should make some cookies! :D

Special shout outs to Courtney for pulling an all nighter with me the night before.. nachos were are fuel!

Friends + Starbucks + Badlands + Art = Awesome

2011-11-21T22:09:00.004-05:00

Photo by Kerly

The weekend was great! Spent Sunday with Courtney and Kerly! I took them to the badlands since neither of them have ever been there! it was the first time I have ever been there an no one was really there! Kerly took some fun photos of us girls! :)

Photos by Kerly

We then spent the rest of the afternoon roadtripping to Collingwood and Clarksburg to check out art an have lunch! mmmm veggie burgers, I never knew they were so tasty! yes my first veggie burger!

'Hey Blue Eyes' Sold over the weekend! So happy! :)

transformer brawl!

2011-11-14T21:33:00.003-05:00

Sooo over the weekend I was at this hockey game and this insane fight broke out! like dudes were just going at it on the ice and I felt soooo bad for the refs.. cause they couldnt break it up too many players started fighting and douche bags from the stands jumped in as well.. it was such an insane brawl! soooo .. the goalies somehow make it to center ice as well an start pounding the shit out of each other too!! and they looked like transformers fighting with all the gear and pads on rolling around on the ice! like how could they even hurt each other with all that protection.. most insane fight, brawl whatever you wanna call that ufc match on ice I have ever witnessed in my life! the goalies made it golden!

Jenna Marbles

2011-11-10T23:46:00.001-05:00

Can't stop laughing.. <3 Love Jenna Marbles..

Movemeber already!

2011-11-10T00:06:00.000-05:00

October which is like my favorite month of the year was nothing to write home about this year! I have been work swamped overloaded exhausted. I didn't celebrate Halloween, let me say that again cause my mom didn't even believe me when I called her Saturday night, when everyone was partying.. I didn't celebrate Halloween this year! or go for any hay rides or even carve a pumpkin. However I did enjoy a few pumpkin spiced lattes from Starbucks and go to the pumpkin parade! super cool, neighborhood pumpkins lined all around the park path! :D

For some odd reason this year I'm super excited about Christmas more so then I am other years.. Courtney and I our going to cut down our own trees, that's right I'm buying an axe.. this should be awesome funny.. two girls chopping a tree down! it can't be that hard right!? maybe?

I have started my xmas shopping and... ok don't laugh.. with all the art I have been doing lately, I got super crafty this weekend an starting making homemade ornaments.. *note to self and others* " Don't make salt dough with a cut on your hand, stings like hell" :D

Oh and talking about art.. I entered the Collingwood Square foot show! Craft show in Dec! Might be selling my Angelina paintings I said I would never sell.. and personal art show date confirmation is in limbo due to venue!... W00!! 2012 is looking Artiful=Beautiful! :)

time rambling

2011-10-06T21:23:00.008-04:00

I am in this emo Pink Floyed Wish You Were Here kinda mood tonight.. actually most of the day and I guess listening to Pink Floyed all day an now as I blog, it has kept me in this emo reflection mood and wishing I had a bottle of yellow tail!

I woke up this morning an things were just emo for me from the start. Maybe sleeping alone.. maybe the dream I had.. or maybe thinking it was Wednesday till about 11am an then being reminded its Thursday or maybe how much has happened the past few months an being in disbelief 2011 is over in 3 month and I have already started my xmas shopping!

Today in conversation during the office pot luck lunch, I was babbling on about "Oh in my twenties" something.. and when I sat back at my desk.. I wtf myself "My TWENTIES".. Like I know I'm in my thirties but still.. so many things you start to think about.. wish about.. wonder about.. thoughts just hit me like a ton of bricks today, all I need now is an anxiety attack.

I went an saw Sandy tonight! baby is 7 months this weekend and omg what a bundle of cuteness! then reflection convo started with her.. we laughed about when we were teenagers and going to party forever.. an then our twenties how we thought we were all grown up an now how we spend our saturday nights in our thirties, at home .. her a little more so then I, but pretty much the same.. home bodies!

home body bedtime now.. Jaggids already beat me too it! hopefully no dreams tonight..I blame my dream for the emo day! yep .. it was the dream, looks like my nightmares have returned.

SOCKTOBER

2011-10-05T11:31:00.015-04:00

Its Socktober.. I put socks on for the first time in like 5 months today an it sucked! closed shoes aren't as fun as flip flops an open toes! Time to pack them up till next season!

I just got over being wicked sinus infected sick! so sick I missed Nuit Blance this year even a couple days off work! I guess it was from all the over doing it in September, sickness was bound to catch up to me!

I had the opportunity to attend a couple of TIFF parties in Sept and it was nice to be on the other side of it this year! by that I mean not working it! No worrying about the boss watching an judging an judging an watching!

I took Courtney as my date to the private TORO After Dark Party - Artist for Peace and Justice! @ AME. Gerard Butler, Paul Haggis and George Strombolopolous were there.. couldn't really get a good picture of them but managed to get one. No one was really taking flash photos cept the photographers so I didn't wanna be that person acting like I was all star struck cause I wasn't.. but I did want a photo just to have you know! :)

George Strombolopolous, Gerard Butler and the back of Paul Haggis head lol!

we could so be sisters in this photo :)

Lakeview milkshake an grilled cheese 1am replenisher! mmmm

Had loads of fun at the United Conservationist Fund Raiser Party with all my old buds from Tribute! :D and a special thanks to Kendra for lending me her shark dress ;)
yupp I wore a shark dress to a shark party! it was baller!

The Beautiful Eric Cox painted as a Shark!

Photo booths are the new party essential! ;)

Miss Mountain!

2011-08-16T00:39:00.001-04:00

Happy Birthday Cheese Burger Burglarizing Babe!

many FIRSTS!!! summa

2011-08-15T22:55:00.006-04:00

Sooo the new job is awesome!!! Last week was my FIRST week and I am so happy! :)) I'm so eager for all the things I'm going to learn.

The past few weeks have been pretty awesome and I have had many FIRSTS!! :) Lets start with I turned 33.. birthday weekend was packed with TBS concert.. the ZOO :).. glow in the dark mini golf.. cupcakes.. trampoline (FIRST).. swimming.. and lots of love an wishes an prezzies from friends an family :)

Long weekend was spent cottaging on Sparrow Lake! FIRST time being there! A place my mom grew up spending her summers at her uncles lodge and camp! it was kinda cool thinking it was her hang out grounds back in the 1930s and 40s! I did two FIRSTS there.. Funneled a beer.. yes I said funneled a beer, I even have video proof. LOL! and I went fishing.. yes I said that too.. I went fishing.. fished for the very first time and I got hooked! I didn't want to stop fishing until I caught a fish but that didn't happen. No bites for me! but they did tug a few times..

Totally parked our asses on this mini island out in the middle of Sparrow lake an suntanned half the day away :)

Then I had my last days at Tribute!! got kinda of emotional. They had a good bye party for me.. an signed sweet things in my card an bought me gifties an I got all sap sap.. an cried a little! me on the last day at my desk!

Saw the FOO FIGHTERS! for the very FIRST time! amazing show! we were so close too.. Loved loved them!

This past weekend was Miss Mountains bday celebrations on her roof top condo over looking TO! we be silly girls!.. played FLIP CUP for the very FIRST time :D

and how could I forget all the other inbetween.. painting an cup-caking :)

& can't forget Jaggid always waiting at home for me :)

Busblog Bday LURV!

2011-07-26T09:33:00.002-04:00

Tony always says the sweetest things about me... :)

READ SWEET WORDS BY TONY HERE!!!!

im 33 happy bday me

2011-07-25T16:21:00.001-04:00

HUGE NEWS

2011-07-21T15:38:00.001-04:00

Co-worker:
I have a resignation letter template
Carrie:
really, can I use it?
Co-worker:
Dear Sandy,
I quit.
Carrie

So I am kinda BURSTING this week! so many exciting things are happening all at once, but then again the smallest things make me happy, like swinging on swings and my cat purring in my face at 6am.

I resigned today from my job and I am moving on to another adventure in the travel world. I am super STOKED and nervous. Being the newbie always has this feeling over me of uncertainty, but then I have to tell myself "Your here because they chose you over someone else and got what it takes!"

This weekend is all celebration! birthday fun an a new carreer. WOO! Cheers to that! My two current favorite drinks at the moment Starbucks Green Tea Frap and Sangria!

Today is also the hottest day in TO since 1939! feels like 48 degrees of awesome :) and I still slept with blankets in bed.

imma be 33

2011-07-18T16:38:00.001-04:00

In one week imma be 33 & finished my 365
I can't believe how fast this year went by! unreal! woo!!!

Summa has begun but I have only really had one day of fun! Hit up Sauble beach last week with Giusi! it was nice to get away for just a day! love sand in my toes.. love sun on my face..love real 3D glasses with the lenses punched out.. love forgetting a bottle opener for the booze! yeah thats right we forgot a bottle opener so no booze for us! yay water!

Cant wait for the next two weekends too, no working for me just all play, birthday fun then cottage for long weekend! :D

kawaii cupcakes!

2011-07-05T12:01:00.005-04:00

To celebrate my birth month I am selling these cuties for $10 a half dozen box! that's $5 off regular price! they come in Chocolate Raspberry or Chocolate Mint! my favorite! :D

Long weekend play!

2011-07-03T12:52:00.003-04:00

Yesterday I went shopping for paint supplies! OMG do not take me into an art store, I am like a child in a candy shop! you can't get me out and I want to buy everything! I think I want a part-time job at DeSerres! Can't wait to start a portriat of Jaggid an my sweetness cupcake series I've been planning on painting for some while! its gonna be sweeeeet! :)

Last night Giusi, her sisters and I hit up this place called The Flying Beaver! they had awesome nachos! the beaver beer not so awesome!

June was work an no play

2011-07-01T10:11:00.001-04:00

June went by like a snap of a finger! I worked so much that having today CANADA DAY off I didn't know what to do with myself! Sleep in? what, serious, relax, kick my feet up , what is that!... I was up at 7:30am ready to roll. I have just been so go go! and July! we wont even go there.. every weekend is booked so I better enjoy this long weekend work free! even tho I feel like I should be working. HA!

I finished the canvas portraits of the doggies for a customers grooming shop! Within a week of finishing them the shop owners clients have be asking for my contact info to get their pets portrait! which is super exciting since I have missed painting for so long an now I am painting again more this year then since I was in college!

RETRO PARTY FROM MAY 24 WEEKEND! I <3 themed dress up parties!

After PJ party with SPARKLERS!!!

GUESS which pj pants are mine!:P

OH and how could I almost forget! I have finally ate at Apache Burger!
more like OMG BURGER is what it should be called.. mmmm

162.2 healthy FAIL!

2011-05-20T11:09:00.000-04:00

It's been a month and I've got really not much to spill but photos..

My healthy living an motivation fell off the bandwagon! I'm not going to sugar coat it, I was doing amazing for 3-4 weeks lost 7lbs then junked out on chocolate Easter bunny heads and eggs, oh an cheese cake too! YES! I mastered making cheese cake! no cracks.. no sinking middle.. absolute perfection! however, my body is not the perfection for the dress I want to wear for a wedding in less than two weeks away! Looks like I will be going shopping, who's complaining!

On a sad note tho.. mom put Ushi down :( she was 13yrs with health issues happening all at once. RIP puppy!

I have been painting so much the last few months along with cakes an the million other projects I am on.. however work is picking up with murals and I am loving it!! Have a big job I am starting tomorrow at a dog grooming salon. So excited!

Oh an lets not forget I did find one night to party till I passed out in all my crazy!

165.2lbs - What diet are you on?

2011-03-17T21:59:00.015-04:00

Its been exactly 3 weeks since I started losing weight again and I have already dropped 5lbs.. its not really noticeably yet to others but people wanna know what diet I am on when I say sorry I can't join you for lunch at Harveys I am focusing on my health right now an losing some weight!..

The first thing people wanna know when your losing weight is "What diet are you on?"
I always tell them "NO DIET" I just change my lifestyle "EE" I call it!(Eating & Exercise), which is followed by a puzzled face.

Me at 230lbs in my early 20s!

Lets just say weight loss and weight gain is no stranger to me. I have struggled since my tweens with weight, up an down and all around. I have been on the diets.. Cabbage.. Atkins.. Soup.. Pills.. Finger down the throat.. you name it! But none of them worked, which lead to more frustration and more weight. Which put me at my highest weight ever in my late teens early twenties. 230lbs to be exact! I was miserable, depressed and my closet friend was a tub of ice cream! I started having health issues; high blood pressure, depression, anxiety attacks, and GALLSTONES! The Gallstones kinda changed it all. I was up chucking every time I ate fried food or drank alcohol, which progressed so bad I was doubled over pretty much every day up until surgery! My surgeon said I was the youngest patient he had ever had with gallstones.. it was a middle age thing! not a 22yr old thing!

Lifestyle change is not easy.. its discipline, discipline, discipline! Taking care of your machine (body) is a lot of hard work. Like anything you want in life.. you gotta work for it! which I am sure you have all heard before.

Now lets talk about food.. Do I still eat chocolate.. oh hell yes! do I still eat ice cream.. oh hell yes to that too! but its proportions people. I don't have a tub anymore.. just a scoop or two here an there!

First off I find tracking my calories is super helpful to me in knowing how much I am really in taking and taking body measurements! and I use this wonderful site to count those pesky calories. CLICK HERE here is an example of a day of my calorie intake! However today is probably not the best example of my intake being Saturday and I'm on a binge day!..

The old saying is true "You are what you eat!"

169.7lbs

2011-03-15T22:20:00.005-04:00

For the past several months I have been binge eating.. junking out.. past mid night snacking.. 3am dining.. you name it! and behind my back my body has been gaining weight to go along with all of this.. how dare it!! I deserved it.

So why am I writing this blog? it started with something I tweeted last night. "169.7lbs" Tony over at Busblog msg me today and said "i love that you tweeted your weight". Tony has been dieting the past month or so too.. on the Cookie Diet and has lost 12lbs and still going for more.

Basically it comes down to this, six months ago I was 144lbs when I did the End to Woman's Cancer walk back in September and feeling awesome might I add.. Now I am this wonderful 169.7lbs and I haven't felt the same lately with my self esteem or wardrobe. My jeans are all too small.. my muffin top is way to big and not cute hanging over my jeans. I put two jeans to shame with shredding in the crotch area from my legs rubbing.. and so on. So over the weekend I had a fight with my inner self when buying new jeans and said ENOUGH! its time to get tough in the healthy department again. So my goal is to lose 20lbs for June 1st. That gives me 2.5 months, losing 2lbs a week. very doable.. discipline time. GO TEAM ME!

Break my heart all morning long < / 3

2011-03-03T12:38:00.002-05:00

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2011-02-18T01:48:00.001-05:00

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NYC

2011-02-15T20:43:00.006-05:00

Kissing Toronto bye bye.. this coming weekend.. C&C be hitting up NYC!!
*FIST PUMP*

The Weekend.

2010-09-14T00:52:00.007-04:00

This weekend was so many emotions I can't even put into words. I challenged myself to something I had never done before. I started to get nervous friday night wondering if all my training efforts were going to be enough. I had no idea what to expect from this weekend except that I was in it for all those that have been hurt by cancer and wanted to make a dent of a difference.

I dont think some people really realize just how far 60kms is walking, especially in two days.

I met amazing people, heard heart sobbing and success stories, laughed, cried a whole lot! challenged myself physically, helped a cause, felt so alive from an adrenaline rush of life I had never experienced.

Saturday my finish time was 9hrs and 11mins to complete 32kms. After leaving the last pit stop I was starting to go a little batty in my head.. like where is the finish line.. I see the park but then we would be onto another street.. and another street. I wanted it to end.. I couldn't even figure out how I was still walking. Kelly wanted a sweep car to take us to the end and kept complaining she couldn't continue. I would step in and bitch.. "Kelly its just your feet, you can do it.. we are doing it.. your not getting in a sweep car! you cant just get into a sweep car to cure cancer! the sweep car defeats the purpose of why we are doing this! plus we were at our last 5kms" we had come so far all day with all its challenges.. like one massive hill we weren't expecting! in a part of the city I had never been in.

Crossing the first day finish line was a rush! I didn't know what to do with myself, sit, walk, find a washroom, eat, call someone. My mind was racing an so was my blood. we got dinner an wine.. no one talked during our meal we were so famished. I felt like I should still be walking.

My mom an sister came to meet me after dinner.. and well we all started crying. I started to feel nausea an decided to head home with them. I couldn't sleep, its like I had motion sickness and I was still walking. I woke up at 4am very unpleasant an sick. Jill called at 6am to take me back to the park. She didn't want me to go after I told her my sicky condition but I said I had too.. I am committed. Kelly and Dana went ahead of me.. Kellys foot was all wrapped an she was hurting bad. I ended up walking alone Sunday. me, my ipod an tons of strangers for small talk here an there.

I only had two blisters.. and a bruised middle toe. I was shocked how well I managed after seeing other peoples feet in the medical tent when I stopped into to get my blisters drained. I felt kind dumb waiting in line. Way to go feet!

My legs don't even hurt either like I had anticipated them to hurt. my workouts were harder on my legs with muscle ache then the walk was.

I felt so proud crossing the finish line with all these strangers high fiving me! congratulating me an thanking me for my accomplishment an commitment to helping an giving to the charity and cause. AMAZING!

Day Ten: One confession.

2010-09-13T00:44:00.000-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
~~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.~~
~~Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.~~
~~Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.~~
~~Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.~~
~~Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.~~
~~Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.~~
~~Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.~~
~~Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.~~
~~Day Ten: One confession.~~

I have this uneasy feeling with death. It scares me. I am working on getting over it since it is inevitable. Everyone I know that has died around my age group close to me has died from taking there own life.. suicide.. or murder. No funeral is a picnic, but I find I would be at better ease if they died of old age knowing they lived there life.

When I don't hear my mom snoring in the morning, since she sleeps in when I get up for work.. I check to make sure she is still breathing.

Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.

2010-09-09T08:08:00.002-04:00

Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.

2010-09-08T08:08:00.002-04:00

Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.

2010-09-07T06:02:00.001-04:00

Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.

2010-09-06T08:25:00.000-04:00

Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.

2010-09-05T08:00:00.004-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
~~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.~~
~~Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.~~
~~Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.~~
~~Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.~~
Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.
Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.
Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.
Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.
Day Ten: One confession.

Nothing really exciting!

1. Shower

2. Floss teeth, Brush teeth, mouth wash teeth in that order! HA

3. Get weather for next day on channel 24.. read the headlines

4. Chat with mom

5. Read

6. Snuggle with Jaggid

Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.

2010-09-04T07:43:00.005-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
~~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.~~
~~Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.~~
~~Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.~~
Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.
Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.
Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.
Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.
Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. Katy Perry - Teenage Dream listen here

2. Michel Cleis - La Mezcla listen here

3. The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition listen here

4. Neon Trees - Animal ( Thanks Giusi ) listen here

5. Broken Bells - The High Road listen here

6. Miguel - All I Want Is You listen here

7. K. Michelle - I Just Can't Do This listen here

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

2010-09-03T09:35:00.006-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
~~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.~~
~~Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.~~
Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.
Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.
Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.
Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.
Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.
Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. Make me laugh! Don't take everything in life so seriously.. laugh at yourself.. I like silly and funny!

2. Be sincere and honest. Even if its not going to be something I want hear. I will respect you more that you told me than not told me.

3. Help someone else out! ie.. charity work.. giving your seat to the elderly.. buy an homeless person a burger!

4. Cook me a romantical dinner..

5. 75% Lindt Chocolate & Green Tea Häagen-Dazs ice cream :D

6. I love surprises.. the little things make me mush!

7. Wish me sweet dreams an love every night before I slumber

8. Hold my hand.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

2010-09-02T21:22:00.011-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
~~Day Two: Nine things about yourself.~~
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.
Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.
Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.
Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.
Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.
Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. I am multi talented in the art world. However, I am very insecure with my paintings because I feel as tho I don't have my own unique style since I normally just paint from other peoples photos. I feel uncomfortable when complimented on my art and wish I painted more in my 20's so I can stop feeling like wasted talent.

2. I was more secure with myself when I weighted 230lbs then when I was 140lbs. Because all the boys that dated me when I was 230lbs weren't dating me for my body but for who I really was and people didn't ask me if I had an eating disorder all the time or tell me that I looked unhealthy! Maybe people were too embarrassed to tell me I was overweight and unhealthy and afraid they would hurt my feelings!

3. I am emotional sappy and love surprises and the little things in life! Such as plastic animals that come on top of bellinis at Milestones! I have cried over birthday cards, songs, hockey commercials, sunsets and small animals! I have been touched by artwork made of me, notes left in my lunch and food displays! I know right! sap!

4. I have a soundtrack to my life! I associate people, places, events, etc. pretty much everything with music! everything in my world has a song!

5. I love taking photos of everything! to the point of annoying others at times! like Why would you take a picture of mash potatoes Carrie? because they look cool like a lava mountain! :)

6. I love comedy cheesy movies.. stand up.. just laughing in general everyday! even talking wackie silly convos with friends that make no sense.

7. I am obsessive compulsive when it comes to my kitchen an bathroom and its cleanliness! My fridge has to be in a specific order and everything in its place. I hate small things on the top shelf!

8. I can't sleep if I am hungry or have cold feet! Cold feet and hands is a result of me being anemic.

9. I love print and have a lot of magazines!.. I have a subscription to Canadian Living magazine. I go to the LCBO and the beer store to pick up there free magazines too! the photography in Food & Drink is just spectacular and makes me wanna entertain and cook everything inside!

Day One: Ten things to say to ten different people

2010-09-01T09:03:00.010-04:00

~~Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.~~
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven songs you currently love.
Day Five: Six things you do before you go to bed.
Day Six: Five bands you want to see in concert.
Day Seven: Four things you’re doing right now.
Day Eight: Three things you are scared of.
Day Nine: Two things you want to do before you die.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. Your my bestfriend and I know one day I'm going to lose you! I think about that day everyday and how I almost lost you twice! Please stop smoking.. you have no idea how much it hurts me! I love you more than anyone! xo

2. I couldn't marry you, because you were too selfish and I'm not sorry.

3. Your a starfucker and I am happy I never got on that plane!

4. Your a mystery I wish I could figure out, understand and learn more of. I've known you for a decade. I want more.

5. I was surprised by you in the end.. and now I am bitter and I want my money back. Its called principle, you preached that a lot. You blamed me for our friendship ending yet you did nothing to save it.. and said all the wrong things. I know now how important I really was in your life. Fifth and Fendi was more important, just like "new".. old isn't as exciting.

6. I wish I had your life. You have no idea how much I envy you!

7. Thank you for listening to me like a broken record. I would have hung up on myself!

8. Your neurotic and I love you! xo

9. I think about you daily! its too bad you missed so much of my life, I hated you for many years an pretended I didn't care! I gave up trying after I learned you were on drugs and lived in denial. The next time I see you, it will probably be at your funeral. sad but true. I love you even tho I only know you from photos an childhood memories. :(

10. I wonder sometimes if we would still be together an what are life would have been like if you hadn't cheated on me. I still have the baby items.

Dang.. this lil exercise was to be fun an now I'm all emotional.

AA = August Awesomeness!

2010-08-31T18:10:00.001-04:00

I was sick last week.. an have been uber doober busy wrapping up the summa .. but heres some photos from my awesome august! and a few stories :)

Mags Bachelorette @ Maro
All the dudes up in this club were wearing plaid shirts, had bald heads and danced some walking weird dance! Fun times!

Movie Industry Event
Our Vball team loses every year! but we look great doing it!

Weird things in our loot bags! nothing really swag about it! LOL

we got our bingo on! I won two rounds of loot! w00t! w00t!

Leah Prayed for a bigscreen an got nothing!

Tears for Fears Weekend!

I got pulled over by the cops for of course speeding on the way to the Tears for Fears concert.. I think this is my fourth or fifth ticket now.. I know I know.. not good.. pfft.. actually you know I wasn't even going that fast.. I was going 120! but it was a 90 zone after Barrie.. so double pfftt. the convo went like this with the cop!

Cop: I pulled you over because you were doing 120 in a 90
Carrie: Yeah I know
Cop: May I have your license, registration and insurance please
*hand cop license.. looking for registration and I don't have insurance on me*
Cop: Do you live in Mississauga?
Carrie: Ahhhhhh
Cop: Ahhhhhh

I blanked out! thank god he was semi nice an didn't ticket me for no insurance papers.

we went shopping at wal-mart at 3am.. it was awesome! we ran that store!

*some photos taken by Giusi! :) Thanks again for amazing Tears for Fears weekend!

Toronto Zoo Polar Bears Commercial - loves it!

2010-08-14T12:08:00.000-04:00

my bake sale success!

2010-08-14T11:08:00.004-04:00

This time last weekend the oven was hot and spitting out cupcakes by the dozens for the day! I baked my buns off to raise money for The Weekend to End Women's Cancers and I raised just a lil over $500! thanks to my co-workers for buying boxes of cupcakes and other sweet treats from me! I am about $400 shy of my $2000 goal! and the walk is now less then a month away! I am super charged and can't wait!

Sooo some lil cupcakes didn't make it in the process. I baked over 200 cupcakes Saturday, mom and I had used up all the counter space, fridge top, dining room table etc.. with cupcakes.. we had about 80 or so left that needed a place to crash for the night. Mom suggested back in the oven once cooled down. We covered them with paper towel an back in they went for the night. Next morning someone decides to preheat the oven for a few more baked items forgetting the cupcakes were taking shelter in the oven for the night.. about 20mins later I smell something burning.. "OMG THE CUPCAKES" they were smoking the ones in the back! we are so lucky the paper towel didn't catch on fire. I burst into laughter pulling them out thankful there was no fire, however mom looked as if she wanted to cry! "how can you be laughing at this Carrie!" "whatta ya gonna do mom, its funny.. have a burny, I am sure they got a great smokey taste!" then she started laughing.

better times

2010-08-02T11:41:00.000-04:00

The weather is kinda miserable today. I am kinda miserable today. Was sick with some kinda bug yesterday. Had wicked dreams last night of people in my life a year ago. Depressed about some people in my life today. yeah its one of those days. :/ photos from fun times in July! :)

La Mezcla

2010-07-31T11:27:00.001-04:00

This song makes me want to travel to Argentina and learn tango an salsa an dance my life away. Haven't had a song uplift me in awhile.. ;)

Just Dance! the weekend is almost here :)

2010-07-22T10:22:00.002-04:00

home sweet Jaggid home

2010-07-12T23:40:00.004-04:00

Friday night was no bowl of cherries. Having the vet call me at midnight telling me Jaggids blood pressure dropped an he wasn't stable scared me.. I balled myself to sleep. The vet bill was starting to sore now past my budget.. but how do you really put a price? I can't and well didn't in the end. However, I started to accept that night that I would possibly be putting him down Saturday morning.

The heavens must have opened up that night because Jaggid ended up eating on his own Saturday morning for the first time in two weeks an was recovering all of a sudden. I got to hold him for the first time in a week as well.. He passed out on my lap for 30mins snoring his fur ball face off! *adore* Sunday was pretty much the same thing.. except his last sleep in the hospital!

Today was so unreal to me that he was coming home. The bill was also so unreal to me with a total of $6585.61 <-- yeah thats right. your reading that correct. uh huh! Yeah ok lets not think about that anymore, cause hes home safe in my bed tonight.. moving on! (:

Another home sweet home today was Courtney coming home from Africa/Germany! its already been 2 months! crazy right.. I know! we are hitting up the beach tomorrow. No hooky its legit booked off! and after last week.. I need a day of just fun times with the girls! its suppose to rain tomorrow but that's not going to stop us!! RAWR!!

five day frenzy

2010-07-09T23:34:00.001-04:00

Jaggid was looking better at lunch today, even got food into him with a syringe an a little force. He was purring like crazy an had no interest in the back of his cage.

However all the excitement of him possibly coming home this weekend an him eating without bringing it up quickly died at 5pm when the vet called an said his health has taken a turn an he was bringing up his food again. This shouldn't be happening with the meds he's on. The doctor I have been dealing with all week brought a surgeon doctor in to talk to me about putting a scope down his throat an possible surgery! Jaggid is worse then we thought. :( I'm so broken over this week... I spent an hour with jaggid tonight! He was purring like crazy an then the gagging motions again like something was stuck in his throat...

How far do you go for your pet? Your friend? What's the limit? I am now past what was my bill limit on Monday... Mom an I aren't seeing eye to eye. I just can't make that call of putting him down an giving up :(

sick spazzing day 4

2010-07-08T16:12:00.007-04:00

The Vet called me in this morning.. HELL I TELL YOU, SICK BLOODY HELL OF WORRY!! I was there at 7am. I took a tshirt of mine for him to have my scent in his cage with him, I'm hoping it will comfort him since he's stressed. Probably thinks I have abandoned him. His condition is the same as yesterday. The vet asked me to try an feed him since he won't eat. I tried a little on my finger an dabbed it on his nose.. but with no luck, since his gag reflex won't settle down. He then turned away from me an stuck his head to the back of the cage. He hates me so much right now :(

For my lunch break I headed back to the hospital for attempt number two at feeding Jag. I found him curled up on my tshirt in a plastic box bed. He didn't really respond to me tho, turned his head twice when I called his name an scratched behind his ear. When I tried to feed him, he put his back to me again. I got kinda pissy with the doctor since the first 12hrs there was improvement an the last 72hrs there's been no change an he seems worse, what can we do? change? test? so they are going to look at his kidneys again an pancreas.

I can't have children, I would be a spazz of a worry mommy! I can't stress anymore how heartbroken I feel. I feel like when I break up with a boyfriend almost... no desire to eat, can't sleep and waiting by the phone!.. in other words the upset diet!

Heartbreak Hospital

2010-07-07T15:28:00.001-04:00

Went to visit Jaggid after work in the hospital yesterday. They have visiting hours how cool, but heart breaking. Yesterdays amazing news was he wouldn't need surgery but all that has changed now and is pending, since blood has now showed up in his test results today. He has only passed 4 inches of blockage, and still not eating.

They opened up his cage for me an my heart sunk seeing an IV in his leg. They messed up his sex an put a pink bandage on his arm. Everyone was calling him a girl! I was like umm he's a boy! wrong color bandage! He was so stoned looking. I said his name an reached my arm out to pet him an he let out this loud "ROAWWWN" I say it like that cause he doesn't "meow" like a normal cat, if you have heard my cat ROAWWWN before you know what I'm talking about! He was drooling from his mouth. OMG I wanted to break down an cry! but I told myself.. HES GONNA GET BETTER!! He then turned away from me.. it was like he didn't want me to see him all hurting.. or he was mad at me for putting him there. I feel so hopeless, sad an sick to my stomach! :(

After today's call I'm scared I'm going to lose him!

sleeping by your water dish broke my heart

2010-07-05T15:36:00.009-04:00

I had some happy fun photos to post from the Canada Day weekend festivities.. but my heart is ripped to shreds right now over Jaggid. Last Tuesday he started vomiting, which I thought was his regular fur ball throat event, so I let it slide. As the week went on an into the weekend his behaviour changed and he was bringing up more fluids.

Jaggid stopped eating, stopped following me around the house, and wouldn't move from sleeping beside his water bowl, which he would only stare at and not drink from. I spent the entire morning at the animal hospital in tears. He has blockage in his bowls an may need surgery. *fingers crossed* The hospital showed me around an took me down to the cage they were going to set him up in on an IV. He was so sad, an started crying when I put him in the cage, I gave him some kisses an behind the ear scratches.

The cost is more then I imagined. $1500 just for today and anywhere from $400 - $600 each following day he is in getting care. If he has to have surgery I dunno what I am going to do for $$$. Hopefully they can get him back on track in the next few days with some enemas and fluids. Thank gosh I held off on buying a new Jetta on Saturday... *tears roll*

32 in 25

2010-07-01T09:25:00.000-04:00

HAPPY CANADA DAY!!

I can't believe how fast June has come and gone, this entire year to be honest. I already have people asking me what I will be doing for my birthday and I have been responding with "nothing at all". I have a wedding to attend that weekend. My birthday is on the Sunday. After last years mess, emotions, and lies, the thought of my birthday is just a reminder of last years miserable summer..and the months that followed. Last year is also on my top 3 years of life I would love to BLOCK DELETE from my memory. I shouldn't be so bitter tho, it truly did teach me a lot of things about people you think you know and what I want and don't want in my life anymore. Maybe I should be thanking these people because they actually taught me about myself if I look at it in a different light.

This cancer walk I'm doing for example too is showing me a lot about human compassion an lack of.. plus politics I won't even touch upon today. I had a convo with a stranger (talking to complete strangers a lot lately) about asking for donations an what you learn about people an what they believe in (not just the cause). Who you think will support you.. an they really don't, an people who you would never even think to ask to support you, end up giving you the most support or unexpected support. Without details a so called "friend" said they would be by my side and well weren't, complete stranger to the rescue. Fascinating!

I am more passionate about life now then I have ever been.

On other notes, I gots me a sexy new laptop this week. The tower died. New benefits kick in today at work, and I am going to get me a new pair of glasses again! since mine went bye byes last summer in all the wonderful events! being blind isn't fun! My car is about to kick it too! I could put money in it an save it.. but I think its time for a 30s car with new memories :) Indy was so my 20s! I really don't fancy the color of my car anymore or the dent in the back hatch from my ex! seriously!

I got to see Twilight Eclipse the other night at a special screening. I am not a Twi-hard, but have read the first two books cause of hype and seen the movies cause of work. Eclipse is the best one so far! more lurv.. more vampires.. more action :)
the movie also has this hottie in it.. Jack Huston *ring the alarm!* He plays a douche bag character for about 3mins of the movie. as you can see Rob an Taylor aren't my type.

Off to the races now literally to spend my brothers Canada day birthday gambling :)

PS thank the strangers in my building that don't know how to lock their network connection for this post.

i cry.. you cry.. we cry

2010-06-10T16:50:00.004-04:00

Okay so I think its pretty obvious right now the biggest thing going on in my life.. The Weekend to End Woman's Cancers. Setting goals.. Training.. meeting new people.

The emotions this walk has brought upon me is unreal. I broke down crying in a room full of strangers the other night during the orientation. I tried to fight back the tears but I couldn't. When I looked around the room and I wasn't the only one with tears in my eyes, I felt a sense of unity, purpose and alive. There was no embarrassment or awkwardness. We were all the same but with a different story.

my life is happy right now :)

Cake GOOD! Cancer BAD!

2010-06-04T10:06:00.008-04:00

Attention Cake Lovers!

I am running a Cake Raffle! And walking in the fight to end women's cancers!

On Sept 11-12 I will be walking 60km in 2 days through the streets of Toronto in The Weekend to End Women’s Cancers. This terrible disease has affected my life personally and many lives around me, Let's make a difference together!

If you make a kind donation of:
$25 your name will be entered into the draw 3 times
$50 your name will be entered into the draw 6 times
and any donation over $100 will be entered 10 times!

The winner gets their choice of the following:
a. 8" - 10" round 3 layers with butter cream filling, fondant and design - writing optional
b. 11" x 17" slab 2 layers butter cream filling, fondant and design - writing optional
c. Dozen custom cupcakes, butter cream icing

Donations can be made here at my personal page:
http://www.endcancer.ca/goto/CarrieBloomfield

Feel free to contact me directly at info@cakesbycarrie.ca for more details!

Your support means a lot to me! xo
Carrie

RAFFLE CLOSES JULY 24th, the winner will be announced on my birthday JULY 25th -
Good Luck!

WALKING ISN’T HARD! CANCER IS!

2010-06-01T22:08:00.001-04:00

Please support me in the Shoppers Drug Mart Weekend to End Women’s Cancers, a life-changing 2-Day 60km walk through the streets of Toronto.

Proceeds will benefit the critical work of The Campbell Family Institute at The Princess Margaret, funding breakthrough research, services, and care in the battle to end both breast and gynecologic cancers.

Please donate generously. Your support goes a long way. Thank you!

Carrie
xo

SATC2

2010-05-21T14:29:00.005-04:00

Less than a week away!! :) I lURV the new poster!

Stare Too Long - Corrosion of Conformity

2010-05-20T09:37:00.000-04:00

moms day

2010-05-14T17:02:00.003-04:00

we be silly.. all the time!

pooped! rant!

2010-04-22T15:49:00.007-04:00

First off.. Happy Earth Day!! check out this site I got to do for workies! :)
OCEANS

April has been uneventful! I have worked the last eighteen days straight! I am exhausted an burning out! and when I say worked I don't mean no 9-5 oh I'm so tired BullShit I hear people complain about.. I mean 8-8 ... 8-10 shifts! Tomorrow at five I am finally taking a break! turning my phone off this weekend an dissolving into myself! my selfish self!

I have exhausted saying this the past couple of years.. "I hate my car!" & "I am selling my car!" but now it has come to an end. My car car is bye bye in the next 3 months! It has been falling apart on me left right and center the last half year! This past Monday I took her in for some "more work then expected" and it failed safety on two accounts. So shes up for sale as is! For my birthday all I want is a bmw :) whaaaat, I'm not asking for too much! ok I better motor back to working since its not tomorrow 5pm yet!

seven days since surgery!

2010-04-05T18:14:00.005-04:00

I can say it!! I got through last month and what a long insane month it was!

It's been seven days since my surgery! I've showed off my wound to a few who all say it looks great! But today to me it looks lumpy! And not healing right! It's crazy bruised purple an yellow! I wonder what makes it yellow? Must research bruises.

So my surgery was considered standard procedures for my lumpectomy, however it didn't feel standard. I didn't like the staying awake part with just a local freezing! They could have given me a relaxer or iv sedation! Anything!

The surgery!
9:30 I registered and at 9:55 I was called into this mini operating room, laid on this cozy clinical sterile bed. The surgeon starts laying these mini blue blankets on me and a nurse joins her. I am feeling kinda warm an let her know! Nerves I tell myself! The surgeon says most people are cold before surgery and is very surprised I am not cold since I'm anemic! The surgeon then tells me she will tell me everything she is going to do to me as she feels around for my lump! Next thing I know I feel this wicked sting and feel faint!fade to black faint! As she sticks the biggest needle to mankind in me, and I'm taking in this burning stinging penetrating needle injection! I start to hyperventilate!! The nurse puts cold clothes on me as I say "hey that really hurts! I thought you were going to tell me, count to three or something!" the surgeon then apologizes remembering she told me she was going to tell me anything she does to me first!

She immediately starts exacto knifing away into my flesh! after the needle I feel things going on .. Mostly pressure! I'm talking to the nurse who put the cold clothes on me about how tweens just don't know how to communicate these days and it's disgusting how texting an facebook are peoples lives an source of communication! For a moment I even forgot I was in the middle of surgery until I felt some like scissors cutting me an my legs bounced up an I let out a yelp! "Thaaaaat hurts!" The surgeon asked me "you felt that?" "Yes!!!!!" I wanted to faint again! A couple more needles! However the lump was further then she realized she explained an now I couldn't calm down from that cutting pain! The nurse had to call another nurse in to hold my feet down! the room went quiet.

I was irritable & pissy now!
An the surgeon was annoyed I could tell. I am sure she felt bad too!

Even putting in the suturas I could feel it and reminded her she didn't freeze me that well!! I'm not so sure how many stitches as there is inside stitches too! Honestly it looks like she sewed me cause the stitches aren't hanging out like regular ones! eww

After I was all sewed up an in my state of shock the surgeon asks if I would like to see the lump!! Are you kidding me!! I am shaking, in shock an you want me to look at some bleedly blobby lump you just knifed cut out of me!! The nurse who held my legs says well at least you didn't cry! Cry!! I'm too in shock to cry! I've got amazing pain tolerance!! Remember my finger slammed in the car door! amazing!

The nurse got me orange juice! An told me to sit for a few minutes.. 10:20! Twenty minutes I laid there! It felt like two hours! But it was all over now I thought! This other random nurse walks in while I'm topless an looks at me and all I could think to say was "BOOB SHOW" don't even ask my why I said it! I thought it was funny!

No working out
No heavy lifting
No bras
No nadda

They didn't even give me pain killers!! Barbaric my sister called this whole surgery! But brave I was to get it done! I rather this then cancer, I reminded her! Fingers crossed for Wednesday morning and back to the hospital!

Photos from better moments in March!

♣ shamrocks n shit ♣

2010-03-17T21:42:00.006-04:00

We got the party started early at work today, 11:30am early! drinks all around! I celebrated with a Corona! I know I should be shot for drinking such a beer on St. Patrick's Day! but hey its not every day I have a beer anymore.

half a month away!

2010-03-15T16:06:00.002-04:00

Winter is officially over and the clocks are sprung forward now. Driving home tonight in daylight will be a thrill!

Half way through this month.. its been tiresome.
Last week = sleep, eat, work, work more, work some more, eat, sleep, repeat.
life is very exciting right now as you can see!

we got some new office fish last week and already 3 were floating belly up this morning! I love the plecos algae eating fish! I could stare at them for hours as the suck away on the glass!

today I am bored with my life

2010-03-04T15:27:00.000-05:00

So much is going on and I just want to be out of sight today. fast forward or something. its beautiful out today and this weekend is suppose to hit a high of plus 9. I saw bikinis I want on a few websites this morning while wishful online shopping. I want summer. I want sun. I want lazy days. I want nothing floating on my mind.

my moms too cute! last night we had dinner at Boston pizza for her bday. My brother D told inappropriate stories about strippers with scars down there chests that grossed him out! his ex girlfriends! my brother Js beastly ex-girlfriends and well lots more which had me laughing my ass off! mom rolled her poor eyes! while we were having belly laughs! D asks mom "what would you like to talk about? got something better" mom starts with something more ideally pleasant to her ears and D shouts out "BORING".. you had to be there! D says it like he says it! if you don't like it, too bad. his words can be too much for people but that's just him. My family really isn't' for everyone! and I don't think a lot of people get us sometimes.

mom is embarrassed in this photo below and didn't know if it was safe to eat, I think my brother was talking about something sex related.. or maybe our waitress that he took a photo of and told her "I take photos of all my waitresses" uber creepy he sounded but it was uber funny!

i miss hair dye!

Don't you see

2010-03-03T09:03:00.004-05:00

It's my moms birthday today! she is 77 years old.
I have court at 1pm and do you think I can find the paper informing me room number and such! of course not, cause my head hasn't been screwed on for the past week or so and I have been living a hot mess of a life.

I'm feeling this - this morning.
If I have posted this song before .. guess what? here it is again!

March are you over yet?

2010-03-01T12:08:00.008-05:00

This month is going to be a crazy one! I can't wait till April 1st to say "I got through it!" I am on a bit of a downer today! the sun is shining for the first time in days of snow an overcast and my head is in a cave.

I am going for surgery on March 30th and I am not going to lie.. for the first time I'm kinda sorta freaking out! I hate today!

In other news

2010-02-22T10:25:00.006-05:00

March is booked with a lot of cake orders. I don't have one weekend off and I am not complaining! I've got my business cards and the site is going live this week! once I clean up some of my code. It was a bit of a slow start to take off last fall.. but all is falling into place now :)

Check out Acrylicana! she did the Illustration for my logo! I adore <3

Also wasn't the Olympic hockey game Canada vs. US last night a downer.. I am not a huge hockey fan, but last night was history so I decided to watch! ugh.

Barrie Weekend

2010-02-21T13:03:00.006-05:00

Home for less then a week and off again! Spent the weekend in Barrie with Giusi girl and her sister Care. Saturday we hung out at the only one mall in Barrie, Georgian Mall. Went to this really awesome store Bath & Body Works an bought super yummy smelling hand wash and lip balm. Cinnamon Mint!

That night we ended up at this bar with a dance floor called 55 Special! it was special all right. The mix of people was like a dating site for cougars and misfits! We had Elvis, Wolverine, the Spice Girls, grandpa, stripper wannabes.. you name it!

At one point in the night a girl came up to me and asked "Is your name Carrie?" with a puzzled look on my face, I replied "Yes" She asked again.. "Carrie Bloo...." and then I replied "Yes" again trying to figure out who she was and she replied.. "Its me Sandy" and OMG I hugged her two times! it was one of my best friends from grade 7,8 & 9 until well I dated someone an messed up our friendship an she moved to Oshawa an well none of that really matters now! So we chatted it up! It was so great to see her again. We danced like old times and are definitely going to get together over the summer :)

The weekend also included; painting nails, trivia pursuit, ps3, alarm clock on the bed, max snoring, slim pickings, minty lip gloss, Earl Grey tea time & no chocolate for Giusi!

Cayo Coco CUBA

2010-02-16T10:33:00.004-05:00

cake cake cake

2010-01-28T12:28:00.003-05:00

My side cake biz seems to have been getting more notice since I have been spreading the word.. site should be finished soon. Would be finished sooner if I had a computer and internet at home, I should really work on all that. I guess more motivation too would help! but I am my worse critic an still not loving this logo I scratched together.. this is what happens when my life goes limbo like the past few months..

caution, moving forward.. excuse me please!

2010-01-15T12:02:00.008-05:00

My actions don't always make sense. but somewhere down the road I am sure they will.

I am no longer going to LA now, maybe the summer? maybe NYC for a weekend to see the Tim Burton exhibit at MOMA. I checked prices for the greyhound. $45 return. I could really use a week of recharge with the sun on my face right now.. Cuba is only $600 with taxes in, but totally irresponsible of me with all happening.

I have to go for surgery. *fingers crossed* the doctors caught this early but honestly who likes to go for surgery.. NO ONE! more details to come end of month.. ugh.

With all the heartache and headache the last 6 months of my life has endured, I was really hoping for 2010 to start off on an amazing hop skip and jump.. but seriously how could a new year do that! It's so easy to feel sorry for yourself. Lord hear my prayer!

I have been beating myself up a lot lately for things. I have these weak moments. Or wait.. people know how to push my buttons to turn me weak. yes that is more correct. Opps the feel sorry for yourself part again.

I have already failed my 365 days project. abandoned. : /
not because I wanted too.. because my privacy an life was invaded in another form an because of that.. its brought me to an ultimate low this week.

I still haven't put this xmas card away yet!. it always makes me smile when I'm feeling poo :)

this post is a bit random an probably doesn't make sense.. but I don't want to lose out on the time line of my life like I have with a few things the past couple of years from not blogging.

adios 2009 you were a !@#$%

2009-12-29T15:06:00.007-05:00

Lets do a run down of this miserable shitty.. surprising.. eye opening..learning.. few happy moments insane son of a bitch year!~with a bunch of photos and a few comments!

January
Thought I would start the year off right with some fun in the sun.. Cuba.

February
Discovered my love for baking

March
ROcked out to fleetwood mac at ACC.. mom was blown away!

Started Confectionary school

April
Had my self plastered on the TTC trains of TO in a shitty debt ad

Started painting again, only to not finish it like many of my paintings.

May
Reconnected with my friend PAULY again!..

June
We won't even talk about this month.

July
This is another month I don't even want to talk about.. but will leave it at.. found out who a few of my friends were an reunited with friends that slipped away & made new friends!

August
broke up wiht my boyfriend of 3 years!

September
Moved home with my mom.. painted a wall turquoise in a quest to adjust.. heel.. an dwell and un numb myself. "What am I doing?" was my repeated question

October
Got pushed by my friends to party.. found my creative side again. Missc Gaga

November
Another month we wont talk about. Just want to step on it!! errr.. lol

December
My lovely friend Sandy got married and I got to be a bridesmaid for the first time.

tons other shit went down.. that ugh.. why bother today is the last day of this year.. I can't wait what 2010 has in store for me.. optimistic is my middle name now! & I am not looking back!

hoilday baking! wee!

2009-12-23T15:38:00.003-05:00

If its not cakes.. its cookies.. soo much fun to create! :)
my mom wouldn't eat the stars because she thought they were too cute!

Sex & the City 2

2009-12-23T14:25:00.002-05:00

here is the TRAILER <--CLICK HERE.. and I dunno why it started off great but by the end of it.. I didn't have those OMG feelings I wanna see it!..

i've got

2009-12-23T13:59:00.000-05:00

and you should follow me :)

he's almost here

2009-12-21T12:11:00.000-05:00

I still can't believe its Christmas come Friday! It doesn't feel like it at all to me. Perhaps because this is the first year I have had zero xmas spirit. Sad I know. I made cookies an such over the weekend, but it was more about my love of baking then it was occasion. I will hang my star lights tonight an see if that makes a difference.

unsaid...

2009-12-04T13:47:00.003-05:00

I have so many drafts sitting in my posts. unable to click PUBLISH POST!

Its been 3 months, 1 week and 6 days, of hurt, pain, frustration, confusion and blame.
I have so many unsent letters, more for therapeutic reasons I guess I wrote them. I even wrote poetry.. that's when I am completely out of character. What happens to friendships? where does love hide?

The time has just passed by so fast. So many things happened. So many things not shared. So many words unsaid on top of words that should have never been said.

I feel like a broken record. <3

Next year will be new.
I am strong.
I am not what you think.
Leaving for LA in 70 days!

My Torture - Esthero

2009-12-04T13:01:00.005-05:00

Set myself on fire, anything to turn your head
I won't deny this, I'm burning from the things you said
Now you got me running around and all that I have found is I can't afford him
All I got is spare change cause he was my fortune
My torture

Had myself a lover, I liked him cause of all of the books that he read
And he was like no other boy that I had ever met before
And I loved all the things that he said
I wanted to heal him, I did not plan on staying as long
I didn't think I would need him so how did he become
My torture

My, my, my

My torture, it's always the sweetest thing
Where do I go? What do I do with this heart?
My torture, my torture

I want you to comfort me
I want you to stop disturbing my sleep
I really thought you were my king
I thought you were my king
I want it to stop hurting so bad
So bad, so so bad...

2009-09-03T09:59:00.002-04:00

Last night felt like butterflies turning into bee stings. FML!

adjusting

2009-09-01T10:02:00.003-04:00

I can't get focused today. I haven't had a good nights sleep in about 3 weeks now. I have these highs and lows through out the day. At least I am not getting up at 6 o clock in the morning anymore. Jaggid cries outside my bedroom door like old times, however I can't let him in anymore to sleep at the foot of my bed. damn allergies. He has been following me everywhere the past two weeks like a shadow.

I can't find my camera charger.. I am sure it's somewhere in the chaos of bags and boxes. However I don't even remember packing it. I want a new camera.. I think Paulys with his cool color effects. It's a canon like my old one so I already got the memory cards & stuffs.

I didn't take any pics at Jens Party over the weekend. :( Going to have to wait till she uploads the pics. Hopefully soon.

ok.. im bored.. tired.. blah an rambling about nadda. time to be productive.

team tribute

2009-08-26T16:14:00.005-04:00

GO GO TEAM TRIBUTE!!!

I have been having weak moments back in my old new room at moms house. It's okay I tell myself. It's been a hard summer to swallow. It's been a crazy few weeks too! from tornado's, team Tribute and throwing out trash.

I got ticket gipped by 5.. pfft!

Maggie and I have hit if off at work, nothing but laughs! I don't think I would have went to the pioneer picnic if she didn't go. What a silly day from changing in the parking lot.. scary prizes.. no prizes.. winning tribute prize.. volleyball bruises.. lights out.. highlighter bingo.. High five!!

highlighter bingo moves! and we still lost!

scariest prize ever.. wtf is it? someone tell me

Will enclosing himself in the bubble ball for a roll!!

I bought my cake domain name last Friday and hosting!! Site will soon be up and so will my orders *fingers crossed* Yay!! :)

FML is good!

2009-08-05T16:09:00.010-04:00

Remember that scene in Wayne's World, I know you do! cause we have all seen that movie. The scene where Wayne walks out the backstage door an he rants.. "What the hell's going on? I lost my show, I lost my best friend, I lost my girl. I'm being shit on, that's all, shit on, and you know what really pisses me off--" That was my life in July! all that and plus!

Now it is August.. I am currently sick with a head cold. It's fun times in the summer. I had tickets to the Jersey Boys this past weekend.. and lets just say I was "THAT GIRL" what girl would that be you ask? the one who was coughing through the entire performance. The one that people were annoyed with.. the one that made people want to get there money back.. The one that people wished stayed home an got a refund if they were that sick!.. HAHA.

Working on caking.. Got a big one for September.. very excited an nervous.. hope it is loved like this July cake was adored, protected.. and devoured!

I have a new interest.. Clouds. With all the storms and unpredictable weather this past year I have just fallen in love with taking pictures of clouds. Don't ask me why. They hypnotize me. They make me day dream. And some day dreams can turn into reality...

1 foot by 1 foot banana

2009-07-17T14:52:00.003-04:00

I wasn't sure if I was going to do square foot this year.. then I was going to do it, but now it is official I won't be doing the Toronto one. Courtney informed me yesterday submission papers were due on the 15th. I am not together lately. So the Collingwood show in Nov it is.

bah...!

Last night was the advanced screening to see Julie & Julia. The older lady chick flick! I honesty could relate to one of the scenes. Julie makes this one dish an it doesn't turn out.. so then she has this major melt down.. an I'm talking MELT DOWN, cries.. lays on the kitchen floor.. and I could totally relate to it.. that was me at my second time making this banana bread recipe that never turned out. It was over cooked on the outside an under cooked on the inside. Billy ate it to be polite an told me it was the best hes ever had. I took a fit and swore I would never make banana bread again or waste my bananas.

when life takes over

2009-07-10T12:11:00.009-04:00

blog goes on the back burner. life has been busy.. exciting.. depressing.. complexed.. non-stop.. an I have had a headache for two days. but I'm not complaining.

Nothing is major new (thats a lie). working. sleeping. eating.. repeat. repeat. I did get out of the city last weekend which was awesome. Also got hooked on boccee ball. geez and I just said nothing is new. Ok so there are some new things going on. I went to the Lady Gaga & New Kids concert a couple of weeks ago! that was a really good weekend.. even squeezed Bingo in there.

Wait.. I'm looking on my camera an I have been doing lots of things.. totally forgot about school in there for gum paste flowers. I was also in the Bonnie Gordon Cake show too. Even tho I am a newbie I thought what the hell an entered. It gave me a ton of new ideas.. and was just over all a great experience.

Not sure if I am going to do square foot this year.. like I had set out too. I just feel brain dead and haven't started. There is less then a month now to go before admissions have to be in and all I have done is just bought the canvas. perhaps I will enter the the fall one in Collingwood.

my brother adopted this cute misplaced abused kitty.. soo cute.. and afraid. :(

This summer so far has just sucked the big ones.. I honestly can't wait for winter and hibernation.

Hurricane Jane

2009-05-06T17:21:00.000-04:00

I can't stop listening to this sooong.. :(

i want stuff...

2009-05-05T21:04:00.002-04:00

I wish I had money to just blow on randomness.. I would start HERE!!

Ride the Rocket?

2009-04-27T16:57:00.003-04:00

I dragged miz dee onto the ttc..

looking for myself..

FOUND MYSELF!!.. I love how the dudes name is MIKE my ex's name.. and how ironic.. his gfs name NICOLE!!..

hahaha!!! its just so weird!

Posing! :)

If you read my blog you might remember back in November, that I got picked to do a photo shoot for A. Farber & Partners Inc. well now the ads are around the city as of this month!.. Courto was the first to see it and tell me how weird it was to see me in the ad as she was on the train! This past Friday I dragged miz hollywood Dee.. to find me on the ttc! it took two trains!! but when I finally found it I was so excited.. but then I thought omg if I had to ride the ttc everyday .. yeah that would be hella weird!

I will never forget

2009-04-27T15:40:00.004-04:00

do you age in heaven?
do they celebrate birthdays where you are?

Its been 8 months since since you passed.. but your memory lives on within me. Today is your 31st birthday and its just like yesterday we were celebrating our birthdays in the backyard or @ Chuck E. Cheese! wearing our party dresses of course! you are so missed. -xo

how so?

2009-04-24T17:08:00.004-04:00

my purse insides

You ever have those days your driving along and you arrive at you destination and you don't remember just driving there. How did I get here? That is my life and what this past month has felt like. How is it already the end of April ? I asked myself this morning when I didn't remember my drive into work.

Life has been the same.. wake up.. work.. work late.. drive home. eat. sleep start over again!..

I have however started a new painting. I like him very much.

clinic time

2009-03-26T18:02:00.004-04:00

Clinics aren't for multiple issues!!..

la de da...

Dee: "Oh hell NOOO your not taking pictures are you?"

Missc: "Oh hell YEAH I am.. dude I am so bored. Your lucky we aren't waiting at the hospital"
"Omg did you just hear the doctors English.. its Engrish!!

Dee: "Yes.. what was that? Did you just get my gang clinic hand finger sign?"

hmm... ?

still bored..

Dee: "Take a picture of this thing.. "
Missc: "Dude its a light.. lets not even go there and its purpose.."

Gross you think they would clean the floor.. ok enough pictures of clinic time.

Fleetwood Mac

2009-03-18T15:05:00.003-04:00

As we were driving downtown for my moms surprise.. She was being all pouty and didnt want to play the guessing game.. of where we were going. It was still fun tho.. cause I would give her random hints and 5mins later she would blurt out an idea. After parking the car and walking to Union station she started to guess "Who is here.. are we picking someone up?" Nope.. Keep walking.. Then we stopped infront of the entrance doors to the ACC inside Union station.. and mom yelled out with her arms going.. "FLEETWOOD MAC!!!" only because she had read the paper during the day to see what was happening in the city to get an idea of maybe.. just maybe where her surprise night was. I love doing surprises!!

My mom and I have never went to a real concert together. Theater an stuff yes.. but not a rock concert, so I was a little nervous of how she would take it all in! It was her first time in the ACC and was a little overwhelming for her at first. She felt dizzy as we walked up the stairs to enter the stadium to find our seats.. but she settled in better then I expected.

Classic things my mom said during the show to me;
"Someone is smoking a big fat joint, I can smell it!"
"Who do you think is a better guitar player, this guy or the edge? I think this guy Lindsay is"
"I think this guitar player is kinda cute, I want a souvenir of him"
"Your dad would be jealous to know I was at this concert"
"30 years ago I was making you to this music, now I am sitting here at their concert with you, I can't believe this!"

Green CN Tower for St. Pattys Day! :)

Classic comment made by street beggar as we were walking by... "Twins!" .... we were laughing sooo hard.. mom said just for that laugh he gets $2!

Happy St. Patrick's Day

2009-03-17T16:42:00.003-04:00

Over the weekend I practiced piping & flooding cookies!! Gingerbreads an chocolate sugar cookies.. I am hooked on the ginger ones.. I think I will make more this coming weekend!!

I know palm trees have nothing to do with today,
but the cookie is just so darn cute.. I had to make it!!

My life has turned into a bake show..

DC1 class

2009-03-12T21:54:00.001-04:00

Here are some more pictures from my DC1 class supplied by Marian. This weekend will be my first weekend off from cake school. It's hard to believe three weeks have already went by! Kinda wish I was going to class. So instead I am going to make cookies this weekend an practice my piping an flooding. There is also a cake show coming up in May.. thinking of submitting a cake for the display area since I'm no where near the competing level.. and then watching the competition that is to be held at night.

ice cream caking kitties

2009-03-09T10:33:00.002-04:00

Another weekend of caking. I completed my DC1 course this past Saturday.. now to finish DC2 & 3. I am going to take a break however and not sign up for DC2 which is to start in two weeks. There is just too much going on right now, so the break will give me a chance to practice what I have already learned.

Drunk Girls are planning an event in May! I have been asked to make DG cupcakes!! I gots some ideas brewing already! I am going to make DG herself out of icing like I did of Hello Kitty.. however I will have my piping an flooding more mastered by then!!.

Baking is the only thing keeping me sane right now.

cakes cookies & carrie

2009-03-02T15:34:00.003-05:00

First Fondant on Styrofoam base!

I'm zapped! capped.. and caking like crazy!
I have been non-stop the past 3 weeks.. working.. schooling.. caking.. and somehow was talked into bingo last night on a work night. I wanted to post my cake progress sooner but there has been no time.

Saturday Feb. 21 : DC1 - my first day of my cake journey @ Bonnie Gordon School of Confectionary Arts. I was really nervous, all the other ladies (all 5 of them) have experience with cakes and have been even taking commissions on the side. I was like oh gosh!.. I have zero experience when it came time for me to introduce myself. We spent most of the day playing with fondant an cookie cutters talking about icing and designing. I learned how to roll fondant out! and place it on a cake. Not easy at all! I was getting air bubbles, elephant skin (when the fondant begins to dry it appears to look like elephant skin) and then one of my finger nails dipped into it! Oops!!

Sunday Feb. 22 : B1 - was baking with butter cream.. YUM YUM!.. we tasted and created our own flavored butter creams, then taste tested them on various cake recipes.. Lemon cake with tropical punch butter cream was my favorite!! After all the yummie taste testing we had to mask a 3 layered cake in butter cream. I was getting soooo frustrated!! its like you could spin the cake forever on the wheel with the icing going round an round and it just never looks perfect!

Saturday Feb. 28 : DC1 - we started the afternoon off learning different piping designs. My hand was hurting after an hour of squeezing icing onto the table, messing up then scraping the icing off the table and trying again. It looks so easy when the instructors demonstrate.. however doing it yourself is another! I need to get my practice on! after hours of practicing on the stainless steel table top they gave us ready made sugar cookies to practice on and to eat!!.. I took my cookies home since I'm allergic to the icing!

Butterfly got box damage!! :( it was the best cookie too!

Sunday March 1st : there was no school. I got up at 7:30am determined with my new bit of knowledge to make my moms 76th birthday cake for her surprise lunch party. The challenges half asleep!! good thing I baked the cake sat night after school. No one could really see the mistakes that I knew were there.. plus I rushed the best part, the decorating part! Overall, it tasted awesome.. I went with Lemon cake an vanilla butter cream. Mom loved it and that's all that mattered.

My very first Cake from scratch!

pay day Thursday

2009-02-19T10:10:00.004-05:00

Every other Thursday means one thing to me.. PAY DAY! however today was a surprise pay day, and everyone loves surprises.. especially ones that involve money during these tough times. MISSC GOT A RAISE!!!.. I had to double check my bank account again! come on.. who is playing this early April fools prank!! I was even complaining last night how much this year has been sucking and not going great. I should complain more. I am so excited like a kid with candy. This has perked up my day as I have been initiating at work for some time that I ~~want~~ would like a raise. ahem. *Pat myself on the back*

Okay I will stop gloating now...weee!!... get back to work!!

rings for sale

2009-02-13T16:52:00.002-05:00

All Sterling Silver.. $10 each.

2009-02-13T16:50:00.000-05:00

my past days & days

2009-02-13T16:08:00.006-05:00

The past two weeks have been working, working late, working more, driving, sunsets, snowstorms, sleeping, not sleeping, semi eating, binge eating, working some more, driving some more, sick, sore shoulder from sickness? I still haven't figured that one out.. but my sister & mimi have also been experiencing the sore shoulder sickness.. strange I must say.

I am so happy it is long weekend. I am taking my sweet ass home to bed tonight to catch up on the sleep I lost last night. My Carbon Monoxide alarm decided to go off in the night an scare the crapper out of me. I panicked and opened the window... thinking its odorless I wonder how much I have ingested.. am I feeling sleepy cause there is carbon monoxide in my lungs and house.. or am I just half asleep.. then to my conclusion it was only the battery giving warning that it is dying. whoosh!..

I am for some reason fascinated with the weather lately. Perhaps because its been all over the place. I am taking a different emotion on when seeing sunsets lately. I use to get really depressed with the thought the day is over, and now I am just enjoying them as I drive into them on my way home from work. The days are getting longer. Joyous!

Okay so its Valentines tomorrow right. whatever right. big deal right?. Right.. so I stupid.. fell into buying something semi valentine for myself. limited nail polish by OPI. wasted $10. does not look like the poster girls nails when applied, in fact it was so hard to get the hearts out of the bottle I was lucky to get one out an stuck to my thumb. lets just say wasted deceiving mess on my nails right now. Ugh, I am such a sucker for girly cute things.

I so wanna try some of these foods. I know disgusting! but yummie.. but sickning, but I am sure you will find something you wanna try too..

THIS IS WHY YOUR FAT! <-- CLICK ME

Sloppy joes on a krispy kreme..is my pick!

50 cake

2009-02-02T10:30:00.004-05:00

This past weekend my sister Jill turned 50!.. she was so excited at her surprise party held at Mandarin. I should have taken more photos but for some reason I just didn't. Perhaps it was my 3 plates full of food I was woofing down, which also amazed my family to see me eating so much. They think I don't eat or something now that I lost all this weight. I love food, are they crazy!!

I spent all day Saturday making this cake. I was surprised how fast the day passed. I enjoyed doing the icing the most.. and I cant wait till I'm a master at piping!

So True!!!

2009-01-27T14:32:00.000-05:00

im craving..

2009-01-27T13:45:00.002-05:00

I have been having a craving all day for MR. GREEK CEASAR SALAD with Lemons!.. I can't remember the last time I had one. I use to eat them like twice a week in my early 20s. mmmm...

BINGO

2009-01-26T11:00:00.003-05:00

my weekend was as follows;

Friday: right after work I hit the gym.. came home made me self some din din. Watched dirty dancing then some comedy.. then I pushed it staying up past my bedtime to watch THE CHALLENGE (cake designs) on the foodnetwork. I was so unimpressed with the designs. These are top designers given a theme (Baby Shower) for $10,000. The winners piping work was amazing.. but like seriously, nothing said baby shower to me. Only one challenger did a baby theme.. the others did what looked like gift boxes stacked on top of one another. Lets not even talk about this no more..I dunno why it frustrates me the way it does. next!!

Saturday morning I woke up to watch Dirty Dancing again.. cause it was on again! my place was freezing an I had nothing better to do. Everything frustrated me for some reason this weekend. I went food shopping an it was like everyone was hanging out in the dairy section.. I started thinking about ramming my cart into the back of everyone legs. You know that surprised pissed feeling you get when you get hit from behind with a cart an your ankle gets caught under the bottom.. yeah that one, its happened to everyone. I started picturing peoples faces and me saying "oh sorry. I'm so sorry" but that didn't happen, cause I didn't do it.

At night I went to Dominique Bingo Bday party. I can't recall the last time I went out on a Saturday night. I love that bingo halls are smoke free. I use to walk out red eyed an coughing when I use to go with my family back in the days!.. I think thats why I stopped going, all the smokers! I think I am going to start going to bingo more often. Damn! you would think I am a 50yrs lady .. not 30!

Yay! Chaos!

2009-01-23T12:45:00.007-05:00

(SO WINDY.. I love the wind! I was a little girl out on the beach that morning)

So I am back to my life. I am back to CHAOS! snow, no sleep, work, 401 hell and anxiety. This week has been over the top insane and my brain is all over the place. So all over the place I messed up my school dates. I thought I started end of March an I start Feb 21st. So my weekends are gone as of then. Cake baker Carrie coming right up! I think thats the only thing I am excited about in my life right now, well really looking forward too. I waste hours and hours on the net looking at cakes. My sister is turning 50 next weekend and I want to make a special cake for her. I wish I had started these classes back in sept but too much was going on. This cake will be made out of love and no training.. hehe. she loves anything with icing so I am not worried.

(mmm I love burgers! let me tell you how much! not really when its not real burger,
I dunno what the hell it was)

I lost another 5lbs. I am not sure if thats a good thing. I am now 139lbs. I eat like a freaking PIG!! I think it was just the trip that made me lose the weight. I had challenges with the food.. and many allergy encounters. However, I thought I would have gained with the burger and fries I ate everyday! maybe it was all my nerves. Flying home was horrible. There was a huge storm that day out in the ocean. It was turbulence I had never experienced before and I swore up an down, left an right on that flight I would never fly again! but that was just a total lie an my anxiety speaking for me. but still. I was freaked out. ( Cuba was actually cold the last 3 days, end of October weather, good thing I brought a sweater!)

(TONS of little silver fish were swimming past me and
I was kinda like "yeahhh, okay I'm in a school of fishes")

I miss the sand, sun, fun, sleep, swimming, Spanish, and stars. How fast it all passed.