caution, moving forward.. excuse me please!

My actions don't always make sense. but somewhere down the road I am sure they will.

I am no longer going to LA now, maybe the summer? maybe NYC for a weekend to see the Tim Burton exhibit at MOMA. I checked prices for the greyhound. $45 return. I could really use a week of recharge with the sun on my face right now.. Cuba is only $600 with taxes in, but totally irresponsible of me with all happening.

I have to go for surgery. *fingers crossed* the doctors caught this early but honestly who likes to go for surgery.. NO ONE! more details to come end of month.. ugh.

With all the heartache and headache the last 6 months of my life has endured, I was really hoping for 2010 to start off on an amazing hop skip and jump.. but seriously how could a new year do that! It's so easy to feel sorry for yourself. Lord hear my prayer!

I have been beating myself up a lot lately for things. I have these weak moments. Or wait.. people know how to push my buttons to turn me weak. yes that is more correct. Opps the feel sorry for yourself part again.

I have already failed my 365 days project. abandoned. : /
not because I wanted too.. because my privacy an life was invaded in another form an because of that.. its brought me to an ultimate low this week.

I still haven't put this xmas card away yet!. it always makes me smile when I'm feeling poo :)

this post is a bit random an probably doesn't make sense.. but I don't want to lose out on the time line of my life like I have with a few things the past couple of years from not blogging.